SPOILER ALERT: I’m about to show you something reeeeally trippy!
Okay, I actually didn’t spoil it because I haven’t shown you anything yet. But just you wait. I’m making you read first.
Soo… right before all the chaos struck about my afro, I was a regular ol’ blogger, with a bunch of ol’ blog posts in the works. I’d sit down and blog about my Vogue internship and the theories of improv till the wee hours of the morning, with a few upcoming posts in my drafts about things like self-photography for your mental health, the ten most titillating pizza slices in NYC, and how to become the Anna Wintour of your college in 214 easy steps. Maaaan, it seems like a lifetime ago!
I had never felt short of blog topics and content, because my life already had a ton of content. That is… until you showed me a whole new world of content that I’d fall to become very passionate about. All things outside of my upbringing and my element. A subject matter that tugs on my heart strings and makes me want to explore, learn, and write my feelings on with frequency. And now, my WordPress drafts look a bit different, with topics like fair housing, guilt growing up, and my infantile feelings on microaggressions.
Entirely new thoughts began catapulting through my cranium until 5 AM. A shiny new collection of realizations and passions now keeps me up reading, writing and riveted until the sun peeks out. It’s quite incredible, actually!
And yet, I haven’t lost my original headspace – I’ve only added to it. So now, how to balance it all? Is it possible? Can I still blog about the the ::magic:: of massage and what it’s like to be in THE greatest movie of all time (verified), while venturing on and sharing a very serious journey to learn about undoing structural racism by personal research and formal PISAB training? Can I switch topic weight on a whim? Can I address all your important comments over the course of time, while still having some fun? Psshhhht, this is MY blog… I can do whatever I want!
There are no personal congratulatory break-dances happening on my end, by the way. This has all just begun. I blog for me, and I progress for me. I don’t “want a cookie” for sharing my thoughts. Although I do want cookies in general. Perfectly crispy-melty chocolate chip cookies, thank you for asking. That, I get from my daddy.
Speaking of my daddy, I’ve been working with him pretty much full time now, gearing up for a very Beatles holiday! I LOVE being able to focus on the family business… it’s so special and real to me.
No matter where I go in life, I can never hide where I’m from. Literally, I CANNOT. My upbringing has been clearly documented for hundreds of thousands of people to see, for I am one of the two star models in The Fest For Beatles Fans catalogues and brochures. I’ve been modeling Beatles t-shirts and accessories since BIRTH, my friends! Striking poses on a white backdrop with my family on the sidelines, every year of my life. “Hey, you’re that girl in the catalogue!” I hear from guests in vintage Fest t-shirts from the eighties and nineties. “Michelle, I know you probably hear this all the time, but I remember when you were this big!” I do hear it all the time, from fans and Beatles authors and musicians who have known me forever, and it makes me happy every time. An incredibly humbling number people have watched me blossom since my mom’s first baby bump, and you can’t imagine what a delicious feeling that is. They’ve been there through my awkward phases, my educational milestones, my skinny times, my fatter times, my various boyfriends, my various blogs. These people care about me. These people are my Beatles family!!
This is where the trippy part comes in: I do not know ANY other way of growing up. Yup, THAT IS IT. This is my sole experience as a human being. Out of seven billion people on this earth, there are only two of them who had this happen, guaranteed. I am the blonde sister in the Beatles catalogue, Jessica is the brunette.
And here’s the real trippy part for YOU: My mom (@BEST_MOM_EVER) dug up all the old catalogues and brochures dating back to my birth, and I have uploaded them here! You’ve watched me begin to grow here on this blog, but in case you missed everything prior……. ready?
My life, the only way I know it:
And now… the catalogue that just went out in the mail last week. If you’d like to get one, it’s free and you can get on the list here!
HOW TRIPPY WAS THAT, YO!?!?!
My whole life, flashing before your eyes!
You know what would have been a great ending, though? The latest incarnation of me… the photo that got cut from the 2012 Holiday Catalogue at the last minute.
Just before the catalogue went to print, the great afro “internet firestorm” began. Oh no! My own family, who had always supported my fro, was now too afraid of offending people. I was so sad, it was my favorite picture of the entire 2012 shoot! But, I too, did not want to risk the chance of offending our customers for any reason, so this was the decision that needed to be made.
A small bump in the grand scheme of things. What do you think? Should the afro picture have been left in? In my opinion, as long as we all keep growing, we’re on the right track. Just like the shirt says, famously quoting George Harrison in Yellow Submarine, “It’s all in the mind, y’know!”